is it weird if i have a...tulpa with alter characteristics
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he isnt a alter but he is similar to one in some situations, he is a weird headmate
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when i was 15 i created a mask, someone else who was stronger than me
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so he could deal with certain things
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i would often pretend to be someone else so i could deal with things i just couldnt normally
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i had one mask, them i decided do turn him into a tulpa
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but i would always use this mask when i was stressed out(edited)
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the result is...now that he became a tulpa
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sometimes when im stressed out he starts to try to force a switch (its very hard for him to do it without my permission)(edited)
2:26 PM
or i start to feel his presence or that i became him, but not always
2:27 PM
he is the only tulpa who is able to do that here
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i know he is not a alter
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because of certain stuff, i also created him as a mask at 15(edited)
2:29 PM
but i became dissociative at 15 to deal with stuff, so i would dissociate on purpose using these masks if that makes sense, you could say it was a alter ego
2:31 PM
he was a defense mechanism for me, and then i turned him into a tulpa, so now he acts...kinda alter-like sometimes but its not something i consider "disorderly" because its not frequently
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and i can just switch back
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but he is the only tulpa here able to do this
2:33 PM
but my thought process when i had these masks was "i need to become someone else or else i wont be able to deal with this" it started at 15 and now you can imagine why the guy is like that ...
So you acted a certain way when stressed, decided to make that into a tulpa. But you're still going to feel/act that way when stressed, so it feels like he's trying to force a switch...
KiTkAT( •̀ .̫ •́ )✧/jk
I don’t know in what context there is a difference between these two, but I’m also not interested discussing it (edited)
It matter what he does, not what you call him. Would that be a better statement?
Yuka
So you acted a certain way when stressed, decided to make that into a tulpa. But you're still going to feel/act that way when stressed, so it feels like he's trying to force a switch...
The mask, you, and the tulpa are all separate things from what ive read
9:05 PM
Even if the mask is not sentient, (bc alter ego) it is still a thing you consider not you
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Hhh where was i going with this
Adeus.
but my thought process when i had these masks was "i need to become someone else or else i wont be able to deal with this" it started at 15 and now you can imagine why the guy is like that ...